unruly things

the time has come again to say hello to a new year. a new year means a chance for a new you. or as it applies to most people, a chance at a resolution. I’m not going to list a bunch of ways in which I think to improve myself, because I think that my life is pretty darn great right now. but I will list some ways in which to improve my well being, in hopes to make a great life, even better.

05. I will go to the gym. I will, I will, I WILL. even in the morning.

04. I will stop eating sweets, except for only on special occasions or treats.

03. I will stop my unneccessary cheek biting. it’s a bad habit and it does no good.

02. I will keep in touch, whether it be a phone call, an email, or simply a little suprise “box” in the mail. (hehe…..the box will be neat!)

01. and lastly, but not least, I will be more concious of how I’m treating others. as someone wise once said, “treat others as you would want them to treat yourself.”

be well in 2007. see ya next year!

I love looking at other people’s studios. it gives an insight into the life of other designers. this is the studio of German artist, Sandra Monat of Herzensart. I love the desk, and I love how the kitty is right next to the desk. I especially love the square pictures on the wall.
I can’t wait until I have a house big enough for my own studio space. (or enough money to buy the new Mac Pro.)

it’s so nice to feel like I’ve actually accomplished something. I’ve had my apartment for 4 and a half months now. and granted, I havn’t been living there, but I still wouldn’t have had the money to get anything that I needed. this weekend, I used my bonus to purchase EVERYTHING. the topping of the cake was my brand new lcd flat screen tv I got for christmas! my apartment actually feels “home-y” now!

after this weekend, however, it will no longer be “mine”… it will be “ours”. we’re so modern with our bracketless shelves and flat screen tv. thank goodness he’s so handy with tools. actually, it’s quite sexy.

“only put off until tomorrow what you are willing to die having left undone.” – pablo picasso

if someone were to ask me 5 years ago, where I thought I would be today, I would have not said “working at a small graphic design agency, still living in Tampa.” approaching my 25th birthday in a little over a month, I’ve begun to really think about alot of things. everyday I come home from work with the intention of doing something for myself. some of my own work in progress of creating a name for myself. and everyday, I come home, and search the internet for endless hours, thus getting nothing accomplished. I’ve got all these ideas and dreams which I fail to execute. example: I’ve had the template for my website for 2 months now. it kills me to know how creative I know I am. I feel like I’m limiting myself. I need to utilize my talent.
hmm… I’ve begun to realize that I procrastinate way too much. I don’t put important things first. I’ve said to myself so many times, that I’m wasting time. art makes me happy. creating makes me happier. so why do I limit myself to art driven by 9-5 influence?

today we rearranged the organization in my apartment for an additional body. I threw out two big boxes of clothes which I plan to give to Goodwill and I unpacked some stuff that still had yet to be unpacked. we put some of my blankets into cabinets and made room in my closet. we even made a spot for our future kitty!!
it was weird and almost overwhelming. I’d never done anything like this before. I even cried when we were trying to figure out where to put my bear and little black whale. they’ve never been put into boxes before, or put on a shelf out of my reach. as silly as that may sound, they had been a huge part of my life and I didn’t want them shoved into a little box.
it was hard at first, but well worth it. so…count down begins. t minus 29 days.

today I went to Nature’s Harvest on my lunch break. 01, I needed to get out of the office for a little while, and 02, I really didn’t want my sandwich I had brought. I’ve been feeling sort of down today, for not really any specific reason, and just thought some fresh air would help. as I was waiting in line for the check out, there was a little girl, not much older that 3 or 4, with her mother in the line behind me. I smiled at the mother, then looked down at the little girl who was twirling around and singing. one particular line of the song she sang perked my ears up. this is what she said: “thinkin’ about how things might change.”
and right at that moment, I stopped letting my mind wander. I know things are great in my life. I know that, 100,000,000%. it’s like I needed to hear that little girl today. and if things change, they will only be for the better.

plans are exciting but they make it more difficult for me to sit still. it’s even more exciting to think that my life is changing. I might actually do something for once. rather than sitting and talking about doing things, I think I’m actually doing it.

I have all these plans and aspirations, but yet, I never act on them. it’s so ridiculous because I know I have so much talent that I am just letting slip away. I have said time and time again, that I feel like I am wasting time being here, and working the same dead end job. I have so much more potential. it’s just exciting to think of the future and what it holds for me.